So I've been tired and totally forgot to keep this thing up... how rude of me...

My little man is still waking up.. his 1st b-day has come and gone. my now 13 month old is still waking up alot... we had one glorious night when he woke up only one time but it all reversed back to the 1-2hr wake ups...

so We are now trying a sleep program from a sleep specialist.. I'm so hoping it will work.. if not I may very well lose my freaking mind....

I have Friends with new babies and I really would like to try to have another baby but if this no sleep thing continues our little man will be an only child.....

If i could sleep through the night I know I can be a better mommy. I could have more energy to get out and do more for and with my child...

the guilt I have is over whelming... I feel horrible for getting mad or crying when he wont sleep...

I just need him to sleep.....